I wanted to live in West Hollywood. That's so me.
I was 24 years old. I graduated from University in Japan majoring English Literature (wanted to be a English teacher) and ended up working for a international trading company which I didn't have luck in environment and people.
My life shouldn't be like this. I decided to go to the US to study Landscape design. That is so creative. I am a creative person I think!
In my plan (dream), I will have life I wanted in 2 or 3 years. I have lots of sofisticated gay friends around me and having nice dinner. I have that creative job using my talent, and sometimes it's hard but it pays okay. I was so driving under Californian palm trees with my convertible.
But I ended up living in Long Beach, sitting in the dirty class room, having no idea why I'm studying how not to fail in setting up sprinklers.
I changed my major to International Business which was the same field with my previous work and which made me very confortable.
This was the quick start of my un-successful life.
2009年5月8日金曜日
Good kid
I have newphew now. He always want to eat something and he always ask for something. Then my mother told me that I was never like that. I was a quiet child always hiding behind my mom's skirt, nor asking for something or crying on the floor wanting something. I was so easy for adults.
I was thinking I was an "adult" among other children. I always thought I am different. I didn't express myself not to bother adults. I don't say I was confident about myself, but I believed that I am somewhat better than other people.
As I get older and get into high-school, I felt like those kids around me are getting matured and passing me by. A Kid doesn't have to be "a good kid". Kids always should be him/herself and be selfish. Ask for what they want and don't give up until they obtain them. Then, they will learn what they can get and how they should obtain things.
Like me, if kids try to hide their emotion or wantings, they becomes an adults who gives up soon. They decided "I can't get it anyway." before they even try that. These people always feel inferior to others and hesitate to be agressive.
That is me.
I was thinking I was an "adult" among other children. I always thought I am different. I didn't express myself not to bother adults. I don't say I was confident about myself, but I believed that I am somewhat better than other people.
As I get older and get into high-school, I felt like those kids around me are getting matured and passing me by. A Kid doesn't have to be "a good kid". Kids always should be him/herself and be selfish. Ask for what they want and don't give up until they obtain them. Then, they will learn what they can get and how they should obtain things.
Like me, if kids try to hide their emotion or wantings, they becomes an adults who gives up soon. They decided "I can't get it anyway." before they even try that. These people always feel inferior to others and hesitate to be agressive.
That is me.
About this blog
This is the blog to talk about one man and his honest feeling.
He is an Asian guy (Japanese) who is gay, which entitle him to be double minority in the US.
And he had some additional deficit of being not buffed and doesn't have master degree.
That is me.
I landed on Los Angeles with the dream of being an "sofisticated gay professional with lots of friends".
This is one man's un-successful story in the US which his American dream turn out to be just a dream.
He is an Asian guy (Japanese) who is gay, which entitle him to be double minority in the US.
And he had some additional deficit of being not buffed and doesn't have master degree.
That is me.
I landed on Los Angeles with the dream of being an "sofisticated gay professional with lots of friends".
This is one man's un-successful story in the US which his American dream turn out to be just a dream.
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